Friday, June 4, 2010

What I Wanted

Some of you who have been reading for awhile know that I got pregnant in February, but lost the pregnancy at 6 weeks. At that time, I had prayed to God about my struggle with wanting to have another child and the fact that we just weren't getting pregnant. God told me (it seems to me) that He was waiting for me to get pregnant until I could "have what I want." Those were the words that came to me at that time.

Now I'm human. I want a lot. Ha.

I want to have 3 kids, I want twins, and I want to stay at home and not work. (I stay at home now, but I watch kids, so it's really not the same.)

But, what came into my mind was that I have always wanted twins. I've always been fascinated with multiples. I have nannied for 3 or 4 sets of twins. And babysat for 3 or 4 different pairs of twins. I was a private nursery attendant at church for some triplets.

So fast forward a month or so, and after some blood work comes back, it turns out I am not ovulating. So I start on Clomid.

Well, guess what. It worked. I go for my first appointment on June the 14th. And when the nurse called me to tell me my progesterone numbers (I had blood work done after my first round of Clomid to see if it did make me ovulate.) my level was 60.9. Woh.

That is pretty high and when I researched average levels, it turns out that high progesterone levels usually mean that more than one egg was we shall see.

Since we did have the miscarriage in March, we haven't told anyone that we are expecting again. So, shhhhhhh. It's kind of a secret. (Ha.)


Niecey said...

Sounds good! I'll be praying for you

Ginger Press said...

I am so excited for you! How far along are you? When is your due date? I will definitely be praying for you!

Jana Green said...

Hey guys. Thanks. I am trying to decide what it is that I want that God wants to give me......I'm not sure if it's twins or not....It would be harder to breastfeed, which is very important to me, and other things that are important to me would be harder also. So I am not convinced that is what it is.....we shall see.

Anyway, Ginger, I will be 6 weeks on appointment is the 15th. Today is the day in my last pregnancy that I started bleeding and cramping, so I have to admit, I am a bit nervous.

I feel a ton more pregnant now than in February, so I am keeping that in mind and holding down the fort until Tuesday.

Thanks again,

Jana Green said...

Oh yeah, I am due February 7.