UPDATE: The doctor saw me today and did not take blood work, but did make appointments for me to get bloodwork and a sonogram on Monday. We need to see a heartbeat on Monday, or it will be really sad news for us. Thank you everyone for praying. We are going to expect to see a heart beat. In fact I am going to claim victory over this because I know that God gave us this baby, and we can use this situation to further show what a great God He is.
Well, the sad thing is that on Sunday night I spotted a little bit, and actually thought that was the end of it until I woke up Monday morning to cramps and more bleeding. I drove into the doctor's office and they did some bloodwork and a sonogram. I should be at 6 weeks, 3 days and the sonogram dated me at 4 weeks and 6 days. When the blood work came back, it showed my HCG level as being at a good level, but my progesterone-the hormone that keeps you pregnant-was at a 6 when it should be at a 30.
A day later, and I am still bleeding and cramping consistently. My doctor started me on progesterone supplements, and I have found success stories on the internet about using them, but I am afraid that it is just too late.
I know that it is possible that I am still pregnant, even though it is not likely. My doctor herself said she is not enthused (her words) about this pregnancy.
Guys please pray. God clearly spoke to me about this pregnancy. He clearly responded to my prayers and fasting. That is the main thing that gives me hope.
God has his hand on every pregnancy, I know. And thank goodness for that, right? But THIS pregnancy, He very specifically spoke to me about. And I have reason to believe He will honor it.
Even if we do lose this pregnancy, David and I know that God is still faithful. He is still loving. He is still kind.
I'm not going to say that we are not crying and hurting very deeply, because we are. I'm not going to say that we are fighting the urge to ask, "Why?" It. Is. Hard.
But we know that God will triumph. And we are going to give Him glory for whatever comes out of this. We are praying for this pregnancy to stick. It is NOT too late. And it doesn't matter what those numbers the doctor gives us say. With God all things are possible.
The end.
Period.